Does Money give you freedom?⠀

Many of my clients yearn to be more free and happy.⠀
Many think if only they had more money or success, they too could experience freedom.⠀
Sometimes they know that this isn't true -but they still feel and act like it is.⠀
I have not been exempted from this disillusion.⠀
I let myself feel that I needed money.⠀
Then I imagined that all the money I needed was given to me. As if by magic all the money I'd want was there in my account. Boom.⠀
Then I felt strange speaking to the others who are still striving to make the money they make. I felt disconnected. And guilty that I was so lucky to have "made it".⠀
I had all the freedom and means to do what I want.⠀
I could find new people on my level so I don't have to face the discrepancy to my peers.⠀
But I don't want my kids to grow up too spoilt.⠀
So I aimed to be reasonable around my money. However, I felt like a fraud because I was living like I didn't have as much as I did- so living by principles that weren't true in my situation. Knowing it's all made up. Knowing that I could actually do more, have more, enjoy more. I yearned for the freedom to do as I want.⠀
So then I did. It felt great for a while.⠀
And then I lost my motivation. I'm so used to have money as a goal and reward, now that was gone, why bother doing stuff?⠀
Freedom takes strength. You need to hold the energy. ⠀
Where there is no structure and anxiety to keep your mind busy, there is space.⠀
And space is easily filled. If you are used to cluttering and clearing your desk, how long does it take before it's full again? My kitchen counter fills up within a day! It's impressive. If you are used to anxious thinking that's what's going to seep through the cracks.⠀
No money protects us from that.⠀
Now my worry was about people finding out how well off I was. And wanting to hurt me, or being jealous.⠀
I realised that it's not the money that would give me the freedom I was yearning for, it's the lessening of the anxious thinking…⠀
What about you?⠀