The best and the beast.

What is the best thing you found out about yourself?
What is the darkest thing you found out about yourself?

This question opens the space for an intensely nourishing and connecting conversation. We all go to dark places, and maybe you, too, found gifts in the madness that has been this Pandemic. If not, here is an opportunity to unpack! What were yours?

Ok, I’ll go first.
The best thing I learned about myself was just how capable, resilient, and in the moment I can be. Being on my own for so long. Being at home with the kids, alone. Signing new clients and delivering on work commitments. Supercharging the business. From the disco ball in the living room for little dance parties to the movie projector in my bedroom where we snuggle with popcorn and my blackout curtains, we’ve enjoyed countless hours of family fun.

The darkest thing I found about me was the frequent encounter with my beast. When you outsource kids to school, and you do have space to refresh, reflect and rejuvenate, and things are going well, you tend to meet that part of yourself less. But when there is no space, no time, no help, pure overwhelm, exhaustion chased by overwhelming closely followed by resistance, then the not-so-magical gates to anger and rage flood open, and the beast enters and takes over the stage.

In my horror, I reached out for support, and the gift I have found through that is not as I initially thought that the beast has been beaten never to return - but that the deepening of my level of honesty to myself and my children has expanded my understanding of what real, and amazing parenting ACTUALLY is.

Because I have been faced with that often enough that I’ve gone through the cycles of “what’s wrong with me?!” enough times, I’ve come to the other end understanding that there is, in fact, NOTHING wrong with me or anything else for that matter.

Limitations are the ground for inspirational stories: Nobody comes from “I had everything, there was a choice and no trouble, and then I did the phenomenal”- It’s always limiting circumstances that propel our creativity and will to change…